Chantix: An Update

Well, I’m out of Chantix… And I’m smoking again! Sigh! Still, I’m not smoking nearly as much or as often as I did before taking Chantix – averaging about 2-3 cigarettes a day now – but I’m afraid my habit will only grow again in time. I have one more refill left, and I’m going [...]

Living in the Dark: A Bipolar Day

Another Lost Day Today – September 27 – one of my closest friends got married. I, of course, was invited to come, and I, of course, did not show up. I’ve been on the verge of tears the past few days but am unable to cry. Fatigue has overtaken me. I’m lethargic and everything appears [...]

Older Women and Younger Men: The Child Dilemma

CBGrace raised a good point regarding children in regards to intergenerational relationships. This is a very difficult topic for most, but it needs to be addressed. It is best if the decision for children is made early in the relationship, so the man knows whether or not he will be a father. If he wants [...]

Obsession: Being the Target

I have recounted briefly my long obsession with “Janice.” Now, I will tell you what it is like to be obsessed by someone you casually know. I will call the woman in question “Judy.” An Innocent Beginning Judy worked on the same floor as I did at a community college. We were in different departments, [...]

Obsession: Desiring the Unattainable

“One way or another, I’m gonna win you, I’m gonna get you, get you, get you, get you.” ~ “One Way or Another” by Blondie Being Honest with Myself It’s embarrassing to admit to having an obsession, but I feel that it is important to bring attention to the subject. Many people have been the [...]

Obsession: Experienced from Both Sides

I have a confession to make: I have experienced what it is like to be obsessed with someone, someone that doesn’t even care about me. While I never was a stalker in the traditional sense – at least I certainly hope not – I’m sure I have caused stress in this woman’s life because of [...]

Thank You So Much For the Comments and E-mails

I just wanted to take time-out to thank everyone who has sent me e-mails and left comments on my blog. My intention is to respond to everyone and visit the blogs left in the comment section. I have been using the scheduling feature of WordPress which allows me to post several messages at once, then [...]

If Content Is King, My Blog Must Be the Queen

I love to write. It’s become a passion of mine. I don’t know how well I write: some say I’m doing fine, others seem confused by it. But I hope to continue writing and to improve with time. But the hardest part I find is knowing what to write. I have a list of topics [...]

Straight But “Gay Friendly”

Unlike many heterosexuals, I have been labeled as being gay because: I’m not attracted to young women I don’t treat women as sex objects I prefer the arts over sports I’m comfortable with having gay friends. Because of this misconception, I have endured hatred and abuse as if I were gay. (Name calling, dirty looks, [...]

Who Is Shannon McDowell and Why Should You Care?

UPDATED 10-1-09 While looking through the statistics, I’m surprised at the number of people who have checked out the “About Shannon McDowell” page. I really do not have much information there about me, so I decided to be a little narcissistic and write a blog entry about myself. (Thank you, Jess, for the idea.) Here [...]